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Sunday, June 18th, 2006
5:35 pm	Crows - I understand them - but not some People: As I sat down yesterday morning and went over the short personal comment from the regular reporter/contributor to the paper, I was struck by the choice of words and phrases she used in the story!! Here are just a few that she put in their to try and get the reader to "see her side" of this issue: 1) "local bird mafia" 2) "angry crow" 3) "I imagined sitting on my porch with a rifle and an evil grin, picking off every single roosting ruffian in the neighbourhood." 4) "menacing caw" 5) "their aggression" 6) "execute miscreant members" 7) "my plans to take potshots at them" 8) "hostile caw" 9) "I gave it the finger and it went berserk" 10) "It's personal now." Yes, in the second to last paragraph she did mention a few of their positive characteristics that crows are known for, but only because she had done some reading and located some information from the "experts". Still she chooses to end the article by mentioning to the reader that she showed it the finger and it went berserk! I'll bet you my bottom dollar that if any human showed me the finger -- I too would go "berserk". The thing is that the story she tells about being harrassed by the crows (they are highly territorial - especially during mating times and when they have young in the nests), and this is nothing out of the ordinary. Many times have I heard from other people about Crows that showed 'unusual aggression' they haven't encountered in the past - and usually this happens in cities and urban areas - where Crows have lost a lot of ground (literally) to development and have found fewer and fewer good and safe areas where to bring up and care for their young!! Still, I happen to live in the same neighbourhood as the author of this story - and not once have I EVER BEEN HARRASSED BY CROWS! I have been to parks and walked directly below trees where they Mother has a nest and youngsters ... and although she (and her sisters) made quite a ruckous, not once did it progress from there! I started to take a keen interest in them about 5 yrs. ago when I noticed that they took a liking to a big old tree just outside our back yard ... and made it a home. I would go and sit outside in the summer time and admire them. Soon, I discovered how interesting they are to watch - all their antics and quircks and on a more windy day ... how they fly up and down in the air currents like small divebombers!! It was always an interesting spectacle. Then about 2 yrs. ago, I would occasionally throw them a few scraps from the porch (crows are the least fussy about food from any animal I've encountered!), and from there they quickly learned that I was their friend - and not jsut because of the scraps, as this was not a 'daily ritual' by any means!! Occasionally when I went out of the house for my early afternoon walk, the three Crows (a little family that made their home nearby) would move from their regular roost out back and fly over to the front of the house to the tree in the neighbour's yard and look down on me! I would look up and make a funny little sound like: Craw, Craw! It wasn't anything in their Dictionary for sure, but it let them know I was aware of their presence and liked them being there. They would "Caw" back once, twice, or three times ... and happily bounce along the tree limbs - occasionally flying to the telephone wire out front ... and teasing me by flying in front of me for about 2 blocks!! Each time I would occasionally look up and smile at them. Obviously, they seemed to enjoy this -- and it reminds me so much of "people". If you are nice to someone, they will surely be nice to you in return. I have always seen my Crows - yes, "my crows" (because they are not mere friends anymore - but one of them is my regular messenger bringing forth good and bad news)as my special friends!! *One thing is for sure, they are extremely loyal, intelligent, humorous at times, and just a joy to have around. Now, when it comes to people, I'm afraid I can't always be that generous: they are very rarely 'loyal'(at least much less than animals), they can be very 'conniving', 'jealous', 'greedy', 'rude', and downright 'ignorant'. Certainly, I myself, being part of the "human race" - do not see myself as being "superior" to anyone or any animal ... and this I think is part of the key to having a better, richer, and more meaningful relationship with Crows or other animals. Angelica (1 Comment |Comment on this)
5:32 pm	Are Crows your Friends or Foes? Hi there!! I'm going to post an article here about "Crows" and the reactions that they seem to bring out in people. Little did I realize that some folks are actually quite disturbed by these highly intelligent birds - whom I consider my friends. I'll post my comment in the next Journal, titled: Crows: I understand them! I would like some comments from other folks who have had encounters with these creatures - both good and bad!!! Drop me a line in the "Comment" section if you have anything to add. Angelica ................................................................... 24 Hours Daily Newspaper - June 12, 2006 Siobhan ROWE's Column: My early morning walk is usually a tranquil experience - at least it was until I found myself on the wrong side of the local bird mafia. As I embarked at a brisk pace last Tuesday, an angry crow swooped down at me brushing my hair with its feet. I broke into a panicky trot, flailed my arms around and shouted insults at it. Undeterred, it dive-bombed three more times, forcing me to break into a 100-yard dash. When it finally retreated, I noticed two men leaning on an old pick-up truck highly amused by this early morning entertainment. Hoping to retain some dignity, I continued to run as though I had set out to jog all along. After a decent distance, red faced and breathless, I took a quick left turn, collapsed into a privet hedge, and planned an alternative route home. Over coffee, I imagined sitting on my porch with a rifle and an evil grin, picking off every single roosting ruffian in the neighbourhood. At work, a colleague told me a crow tried to scalp her in a ballpark full of people; another friend reported that someone she knew had needed therapy after a crow attack. We all laughed, but I haven't been for a morning walk since, and I'm alert to every menacing caw I hear. Hoping it might help, I read up on these creepy Corvids thatt have me holed up at home. Nothing I discovered consoled me except that their aggression, usually to protect their young or food supply, tails off in late spring. According to the experts, crows talk amongst themselves, they have names for each other, and they even execute miscrant members of their community. I also discovered that a crow is no feather brain. It has the same size brain as a monkey and can even make tools to extricate food from awkward spots - researchers have shown that crows can bend pieces of wire to fashion a hook. Along one Japanese highway, canny crows drop walnuts on the road so that passing cars crack the shells. These birds mourn their dead, care for their injured, and remember their enemies - which quickly symied my plans to take potshots at them. I'm not sure what to do now: I want to go back to my early morning walk, but every time I consider it I hear a hostile caw in the distance. As I write this there is actually a crow sitting on the telephone line right outside the kitchen window, staring in at me. I gave it the finger and it went berserk. It's personal now. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
5:09 pm	Well, once again I'm being forced to pay attention to my 2 crows whenever they show up!! Each time I learn that their behaviour announces something very important or serious has happened ... and this is the 2nd time that they came to announce a "death" related to my fiance. Sunday afternoon and evening I was feeling quite melancholoy. I could not seem to engage myself with anyone or anything. I felt like a ghost in my home. I wasn't feeling terribly fatigued, but felt as if something just wasn't "right". Then on Monday morning - early (about 6am) one of the two crows that visit me regularly - she kind of started going berserk!! She was on the roof right above my head - above my window -- and I'd never heard her sqawk so loudly!! It lasted like 10 min's., so I had to get up move over to the window - open it - and tell her "enough is enough"!! After that she flew off to be with her daughter in the tree just across the lane. But later that morning my stomach started to feel a bit 'jittery/uneasy' ... followed by some abdominal discomfort. That discomfort grew worse and worse throughout the afternoon -- into the evening. That night I had really wanted to call Joe and ask him what the heck was going on!! (*I knew by now it wasn't directly related to him - because if it was - I would've been much more "emotional" - like I get when something is affecting him directly - there's like this emotional link from him to me that is unmistakable!) Still, I wanted to find out what was happening - but I couldn't even call him, as he'd Lost his phone on Friday - so we had like no contact since Friday morning!! On Tuesday morning ... I rushed through my morning appointment, as I had wanted to get it over with (it was a job interview - with a job that I most definitely didn't want because I already knew that I would be totally unsuitable to work with those type of clients!) ... but I got thru it ... and immediately set out to go out to where my fiance lives. Once there at his place, I realized he wasn't home -- but kept getting the sense he was "close by"!! Little did I know just how right I was (in fact he was visiting a good friend only about 4 miles from his place), and I kept getting vibes from him all day long. I hung around near the park for about 2 hrs. ... and occupied myself for a while (it was one of the few days that I didn't have to rush home to cook dinner/clean up, etc.) I get home around 7pm. Now I'm feeling rather disturbed that I wasn't able to hone in more closely to where he was!! And the tension was building - like I was expecting some sort of news to hit!! Finally I'm getting ready to go to bed at about 9:30pm (it was a long day and I was finally exhausted), and i turned my phone on one last time. As soon as I did, there was one msg. - I knew immediately he had called. He called from the friend's house he was at - to let me know that he had just found out that morning (Tuesday morning) that his Sister had died back in January - just after New Years - it was expected as she had been battling Cancer for over 3 yrs., but he was extremely upset - that no one else had tried to contact him to let him know!! He also found out at the same time, that his only remaining brother (older brother) had died unexpectedly on Sunday night. Again, he knew NOTHING!! Finally we hooked up yesterday -- and he was finally able to unburden some of the "pain/disappointment" that he was carrying around. I think it must've bothered him a great deal that his sister from the Island didn't leave a msg. here (which would've been passed on to him); or that no one like friends, had bothered to get a hold of him -- in the end it had to be someone who had found out like 2nd hand, and made the trip out to go and see him and tell him!! Now I know why that Crow (my constant companion) was so upset on Monday morning and came to tell me!! After meeting with my fiance yesterday, he informed me that he had the same thing happen to him but earlier - his Crows came and made a very loud announcement at his window on Sunday afternoon. The lady crow came to his opened window - and she teetered on the ledge (his window ledge is very narrow), and Cawed very loundly; she looked him right in the eye - and voiced her msg. That's when he knew that some kind of "unpleasant" news was coming his way - but he didn't find out exactly what until Tues. AM. All this really does is solidify for me what I had previously ignored like 6 mos. ago and more -- is that "his crows" somehow pass on the msgs. to "my crows" - and I'm informed of certain important events!! Exactly how it is that "my crows" get information from other crows that are like 22 miles away - is still a mystery!! But then it may seem like a mystery to some people that my "senses" are so acute to Joe -- and they always signal 'something' (usually it's accompanied by real physical discomfort that only eases once I take some kind of Action); like the action I took just to go out to where he lives - it was only then after I arrived - that my Abdominal pain/discomfort totally stopped. I'm realizing with all these experiences (and they aren't all bad) that my senses never lie to me - and my Crows are always faithful. This is why when I see them in the morning while i'm in the kitchen, I go outside throw them a couple scraps - and say "Good Morning"!! Sometimes when I leave the house in the morning - to go on errands, etc., the two of them will accompany me for up to 3 blocks -- hopping along the telephone wires above ... flying in front of me ... and then I say, "Okay thanks, I'm fine now!" and they go back to the tree by the house (or one of their other roosting places). I would love to hear from anyone who also has had similar kinds of experiences when dealing with someone close to them!! Let me know how you have come to pay attention to your own 'internal' silent voice!! Blessings to all, Angelica (Comment on this)
Thursday, June 15th, 2006
7:46 am	When the Crow or Raven show up - a death is being announced: Well, once again I'm being forced to pay attention to my 2 crows whenever they show up!! Each time I learn that their behaviour announces something very important or serious has happened ... and this is the 2nd time that they came to announce a "death" related to my fiance. Sunday afternoon and evening I was feeling quite melancholoy. I could not seem to engage myself with anyone or anything. I felt like a ghost in my home. I wasn't feeling terribly fatigued, but felt as if something just wasn't "right". Then on Monday morning - early (about 6am) one of the two crows that visit me regularly - she kind of started going berserk!! She was on the roof right above my head - above my window -- and I'd never heard her sqawk so loudly!! It lasted like 10 min's., so I had to get up move over to the window - open it - and tell her "enough is enough"!! After that she flew off to be with her daughter in the tree just across the lane. But later that morning my stomach started to feel a bit 'jittery/uneasy' ... followed by some abdominal discomfort. That discomfort grew worse and worse throughout the afternoon -- into the evening. That night I had really wanted to call Joe and ask him what the heck was going on!! (*I knew by now it wasn't directly related to him - because if it was - I would've been much more "emotional" - like I get when something is affecting him directly - there's like this emotional link from him to me that is unmistakable!) Still, I wanted to find out what was happening - but I couldn't even call him, as he'd Lost his phone on Friday - so we had like no contact since Friday morning!! On Tuesday morning ... I rushed through my morning appointment, as I had wanted to get it over with (it was a job interview - with a job that I most definitely didn't want because I already knew that I would be totally unsuitable to work with those type of clients!) ... but I got thru it ... and immediately set out to go out to where my fiance lives. Once there at his place, I realized he wasn't home -- but kept getting the sense he was "close by"!! Little did I know just how right I was (in fact he was visiting a good friend only about 4 miles from his place), and I kept getting vibes from him all day long. I hung around near the park for about 2 hrs. ... and occupied myself for a while (it was one of the few days that I didn't have to rush home to cook dinner/clean up, etc.) I get home around 7pm. Now I'm feeling rather disturbed that I wasn't able to hone in more closely to where he was!! And the tension was building - like I was expecting some sort of news to hit!! Finally I'm getting ready to go to bed at about 9:30pm (it was a long day and I was finally exhausted), and i turned my phone on one last time. As soon as I did, there was one msg. - I knew immediately he had called. He called from the friend's house he was at - to let me know that he had just found out that morning (Tuesday morning) that his Sister had died back in January - just after New Years - it was expected as she had been battling Cancer for over 3 yrs., but he was extremely upset - that no one else had tried to contact him to let him know!! He also found out at the same time, that his only remaining brother (older brother) had died unexpectedly on Sunday night. Again, he knew NOTHING!! Finally we hooked up yesterday -- and he was finally able to unburden some of the "pain/disappointment" that he was carrying around. I think it must've bothered him a great deal that his sister from the Island didn't leave a msg. here (which would've been passed on to him); or that no one like friends, had bothered to get a hold of him -- in the end it had to be someone who had found out like 2nd hand, and made the trip out to go and see him and tell him!! Now I know why that Crow (my constant companion) was so upset on Monday morning and came to tell me!! After meeting with my fiance yesterday, he informed me that he had the same thing happen to him but earlier - his Crows came and made a very loud announcement at his window on Sunday afternoon. The lady crow came to his opened window - and she teetered on the ledge (his window ledge is very narrow), and Cawed very loundly; she looked him right in the eye - and voiced her msg. That's when he knew that some kind of "unpleasant" news was coming his way - but he didn't find out exactly what until Tues. AM. All this really does is solidify for me what I had previously ignored like 6 mos. ago and more -- is that "his crows" somehow pass on the msgs. to "my crows" - and I'm informed of certain important events!! Exactly how it is that "my crows" get information from other crows that are like 22 miles away - is still a mystery!! But then it may seem like a mystery to some people that my "senses" are so acute to Joe -- and they always signal 'something' (usually it's accompanied by real physical discomfort that only eases once I take some kind of Action); like the action I took just to go out to where he lives - it was only then after I arrived - that my Abdominal pain/discomfort totally stopped. I'm realizing with all these experiences (and they aren't all bad) that my senses never lie to me - and my Crows are always faithful. This is why when I see them in the morning while i'm in the kitchen, I go outside throw them a couple scraps - and say "Good Morning"!! Sometimes when I leave the house in the morning - to go on errands, etc., the two of them will accompany me for up to 3 blocks -- hopping along the telephone wires above ... flying in front of me ... and then I say, "Okay thanks, I'm fine now!" and they go back to the tree by the house (or one of their other roosting places). I would love to hear from anyone who also has had similar kinds of experiences when dealing with someone close to them!! Let me know how you have come to pay attention to your own 'internal' silent voice!! Blessings to all, Angelica (Comment on this)
Saturday, May 27th, 2006
11:18 am	My Poem for this morning -- "Faith": I put my Faith in you dear God, I lay in wait that you will hear My quiet fears and cleanse my silent tears ... Until then I cannot rest, nor eat, or experience joy ... And tranquil Peace is elusive and mysterious As the invisible Air that surrounds me ... And when I fear that you are Far, I look out at the brilliant, mysterious Star in the dark of the night that seems to beckon me ... Then I sense the Light of this Star, As brilliant and piercing as it is, it is only a little bleep Compared to the Light emanating from YOU, And touching my Heart! So even in my darkest moments, the Dreams of Divinity And dancing Angels full of wisdom and glorious colours of Creativity, come to Rescue me ... And cleanse my fears that plague me in the Daytime! Thank you for Reminding Me, in the most elusive and Sleep-filled moments when Rest is but an illusion, that Faith can Conquer Fear every time ... When One realizes that YOU are LOVE!! And LOVE cannot be Extinguished. (Comment on this)
Wednesday, May 17th, 2006
5:33 pm	The energies are slowing down this week! (Thank goodness!) Hello friends, Well, I'm terribly relieved that the frantic energy of last week is finally behind me. This Monday started out as with a fresh page in a Journal -- clean and transparent! I wonder why I chose those particular words, hmmm? It must have something to do with simply letting of of the previous week and deciding to give up some of the loose ends over to the Creator. If I can't fix 'everything in my life' -- well, hey that's okay!! It simply isn't meant to be ... for me to be in control of everything. In fact, life seems to eventually move more 'smoothly' if I do exactly that! It's funny how many times I've been told that for a Cancer woman ... I sure have some strong Gemini traits (even though my rising sign is in Leo), hmm. Don't know about that one - but I do seem to get on quite well with Geminis! Not only do I find them interesting because they tend to have lots of different interests, have an intellectual bent, and tons of energy, but I also find (at least for me) that they always tell it like it is ... no trying to soothe the feelings of another, no second or third thoughts as to whether they should come out and say it or not; nope, for a Gemini person it's usually: "If I find this person is irritating me - I certainly will let them know it!" (of course there are always drawbacks to be overly outspoken at the wrong times) ... but I've never yet met a Gemini that has 'regretted' his or her impulsive actions. Generally, the also seem to do very well in the work environment (especially in management positions) and I can relate to this also - because I too dislike having to work under someone (especially if that 'someone' has less brains than I do -but is in a position of authority!); and believe you me, in my own work history -- this situation has come up plenty of times ... and resulted in some problems for sure. I often wake up in the morning and ask myself what went wrong? Well, after all, I definitely should have the kind of job where I'm either self-employed or in business for myself ... and yet in the past 2 decades this 'dream' simply has never materialized ... as I was faced with financial difficulties much of the time!! Probably one of my biggest regrets is that I didn't jump at the chance to go to University and get a decent education with a Degree!! I had that chance once, and only once when I was 20 and refused (it was offered by a family member); actually it would've been foolhardy to do so at the time because at 20 I had the social and emotional skills of a 16 yr. old (loooong story) - let's just say that I was very much at odds with the style of upbringing my loving parents brought me up with!! Well, you know the saying: "One cant' choose their parents, and they can't choose you!" (I'm sure that they would've preferred other characteristics in their only daughter, to the ones that surfaced!). So the job hunting continues ... week after week after week!! Pretty much the 'same ol', 'same ol' stuff!! But eventually something will come up ... and hopefully it will be just the perfect job or setting that will allow me to be successful! As for this week, I'm just grateful that I don't feel as frantic as I did the week before ... and have even allowed myself a wonderful day at the beach yesterday - the the man I love!! It was a gorgeous day at a gorgeous location and the energy of the place was just wonderful!! I hope to do this more often during the summer, depending on what obligations I have to keep (family, temp jobs, friends). The bottom line is, if you ever are feeling like you are just spinning your wheels --well, that's because YOU ARE!! One remedy that works for me is to simply say to yourself -- "Okay, enough already! I've done what I can do ... now please let Divine Will steer me in the direction I should go ... I'll wait for the signals and listen to my intuition guide me!" Believe me, even if you think you are not progressing as quickly as your ego wants you to! Your Higher Power (Divine Will) always knows what's best and will even quitly present opportunities that you need 'at the time'. I wish everyone a happy and fulfilling week ahead. Blessings, Angelica (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, May 7th, 2006
9:36 am	A typical Rainy Sunday Morning (but not so typical)! Good Morning!! Okay this is my 1st attempt at my Weekly Journal (Notes) ... and usually as with the vast majority of my writings, I simply plop myself down at my computer and get quiet and allow my thoughts to roam to the more important/significant events of the past week!! This past week was rather different than most inthe past 3 months because of physical changes I've noticed. Probably nothing to be alarmed about ... but it is something I should probably keep track of. It may also be useful to put it into perspective and realize that there are 3 fundamental areas that affect one's health: 1) Mental 2) Emotional 3) Physical conditions I listed the three domains in this specific order because I've noted, at least in myself, that the mental/emotional factors play a big role as to whether I'm going to be feeling physically well or not! By physical conditions, I mean those conditions that are not related or linked to the previous 2 domains (i.e. chemical food sensitivity, allergy response, lack of food causing headache, etc.). So, why was this past week different? Well for the most part because I had some difficulties/discomfort for 3 of those days connected to my normal monthly cycle -- that were quite different from anything I'd experienced before. It was so severe that I had to use painkillers for the 3 days (and I really dislike using painkillers of any kind, even Tylenol or Ibuprofen, or anything). Just to get away from this line of thought, I want to say only that the circumstances forced me to face the possibility of something much worse going on; something that I had contemplated off and on for the past 8 mos., but didn't want to look at it too closely because that would the pose some difficult questions, such as: Well, if i knew that this condition was strong possibility, why didn't i go see the doctor? Why had I not gone in and mentioned a few things that had started happening for past 4 mos (and were unusual in my medical history)? Why had I not sought out the possible reasons and then decided to face it? To answer these questions would be to force myself to look at a much bigger picture, one that is not so pretty to look at!! And probably feeling somewhat trapped -- in that there are some life situations impossible to change at the moment -- what good would it do to go there anyhow? So, instead I focus on those things that interest me and divert my attention AWAY!! My spiritual groups! My science journals and online articles (which I thoroughly enjoy reading/studying), my regular e-mails with Online friends in which we discuss everything and anything under the sun, and just laying down with my adopted cat and allowing her to relax me (as I can't seem to relax very well the last couple weeks) to the point of reaching a meditative state -- which in turn, produces very vivid insight (and occasionally very lucid dreams) like the kind I had just last night!! Last night I had such a bizarre dream that i didn't even write it down in my Journal this morning -- because it was so convoluted and jumped from one theme to another. But now that I think back, I realize that although it jumped to 3 different themes, in the conclusion just before I woke up ... it arrived at the starting point again, where I heard this strange phrase in my head I couldn't get rid of (impossible to ignore) ... and although I've forgotten a few of the words in the phrase, I think it was very similar to this: "Why seek so many questions of the Ancients ... they are already here ... right beside you? ... Why are you looking backwards ... they are here?" Okay, now isn't this the weirdest/strangest sort of comment you've ever heard? Well, believe me I was very puzzled by this throughout my entire dream ... which was interspered by some strange sights; i.e. me sitting on top of a tall mountain and conversing with these gigantic Eagles, and having a most intellectual conversation ... and at the same time wondering how it is that I, as a human, can have this most ordinary 'human/god' sort of conversation with Eagles ... and suddenly realizing that just because it is a bird ... it has the capacity to understand 'human thought' because these are no ordinary Eagles -- but they are a higher-evolved breed that has joined some kind of 'pact' with God! And thus has been given the privilege of being able to connect with other entities -- including humans!! So, it was a kind of puzzling dream that involved a lot of thought accompanied by very rich nature scenes, birds, sounds and colour -- colour so rich that I had a hard time figuring out if I was on some other kind of world (and perhaps, just perhaps I was?). Right now, I'm back down on earth ... a very gray sort of morning ... underneath the North Shore mountains ... very rainy and damp ... but my mind is racing. I had better finish reading the last couple chapters in a wonderful book I started a month ago, titled: The Seat of the Soul (Gary Zukav). Okay, I think that's plenty for my first journal entry. Enjoy your day everyone!! Angelica (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, May 5th, 2006
5:40 pm	My first Journal to enhance my 360 Page! Hello there: Please don't expect too much to come from this, my first Journal entry. This is only an initial introduction (actually not needed) as pretty much everything about me is already available in my Profile section. Nevertheless, the reason for starting the LiveJournal for Angelica is simply to prompt myself to write 'weekly journals' of observations I make during the course of my week!! I will initiate my first 'observational journal' starting on Sunday (it will cover the period from the previous Sunday). My other aim is to attract folks out there in the public that have similar/same interests as myself and to go and visit my Yahoo 360 Page from time to time and comment on any Blogs or items that they find interesting and would like to get an exchange of ideas going. So, I think that's about enough for the introduction phase of this Journal. Have a good weekend everyone!! Angelica (Comment on this)